life unfair

how come when you are little you have so many dreams and goals? As I grow older I realize that there are certain people who will squash your dreams and make it seem that you will never reach your goals. I know for a fact that my dreams and goals will become a reality. I don't care about what those people say; they will not get me down. I am going to try my hardest and use 100% of my effort to reach my dreams and goals. Nobody can take those away from me except myself. I know I'm young but I'm not trying to give up on what I want just because it's not what others want for me. Most parents would want their children to be happy and that's all they want because they want that for their children. With me it's not like that. What makes me happy isn't what I always get. Sure my parents provide for me and everything like that but when it comes to who I am they don't have a clue. It's sad to say that your parents don't know the "real" you but that's exactly how it is in my life. My opinions, my desires; they don't matter. If it's not up to my parent's standards or they don't approve then that won't happen. My parents are there for me but not really. They go through the motions of being in my life but don't actually participate. They listen but don't hear what I am really saying. Sometimes it hurts so much because they don't see me for the person I am. They only see me for who they want me to be. That is something I hate because it's just a front it's nothing real and so they can't know how I really feel without them learning who I am and accepting that.

L*O*V*E*

love. what is love exactly? Love is the unity of people. Love is the unconditional caring about someone or something. Love is what makes the world go around. Love is that thing that you get when you are with someone and all you do is get butterflies in your stomach and you go crazy thinking about them. Love is something that all of us have no matter what. Love is something that you can give and something that you can recieve. Love is something that can never die; it is eternal. So think about it carefully. Love is not something that comes or goes easily. Everyone in life deserves love to have it to give it and to be surrounded by it. I think that in life everyone has their battles with love. Not everyone has the same experiences with love but everyone does have it in their life. It should be cherished and not taken for granted.

today the first day

This is my first time blogging so it's not that great, today went from great to good to bad to worst. i mean there are so many complications in life and it seems like most of the time you are going through them alone. sometimes you think people are there but then they aren't for some reason. So much stuff happens in our everyday lives. I mean there's politics, school, home life, work, social life, and then just regular problems. I had problems at school and in the social life today and problems at home. At school I had to worry about finals and getting all my homework done on time, man that is stressful! At home was when things got worse I had to have the crazy family drama and that just got me mad because I already was in a bad mood. The family drama could of waited or not been started but families do have drama. I dealt with it but it was hard and it wasn't what I needed in my day. It seems as though I'm in the middle of all the trouble and there's no way for me to get out. You would think someone would make a book about how you could get out of all the problems or work through them but you can;t trust a book because that doesn't relate to your situation personally. I wish life could be easier but who ever said that it was? It's like the quote "If life gives you lemons, then make lemonade." Basically to me it means that whatever life gives you then you have to roll with it. No matter what the problem is you can always work through it. Well that's all for now bloggers